That's me in the spotlight

[Coly23]

Hey Altair, sorry you are feeling rubbish at the moment. Not good when you have to force yourself to smile with strangers coupled with not feeling to well either. I do hope your health improves soon.

You say that that this time of the year may cause your H to throw in the towel but do you think that is you projecting your feelings on to him? Are you feeling like throwing in the towel but you are conflicted with your need to stand for your marriage as well? I know the feeling!

To be honest with you I consider throwing in the towel about 100 times a day but I think it's all part and parcel of our journey. Prior to writing this I was blubbering good and proper after reading a motivational quote on Pintrest and thought that's it I can't do this anymore I'm going to text H and tell him where to stick it! But then i calmed down and saved some nice recipes instead.

I've realised that I am a very impulsive person and I've had to learn to stop myself from reacting when I think H is thinking something. You don't know what he is thinking Altair so setting yourself up for another BD is only gonna make you ill especially with your current medical worries. Your IC is right, live in the present because the future is unknown even to your H. Don't give him that power. Now I think I need to take my in advice!

Let's take a walk down to the banks of the Rubucon and meet AP and the others for a nice Limoncello. (((Altair))).