Thank you rouky. I feel so deeply engrained in negativity and depression. Stuck like. Not feeling very positive at all. I know it will pass. But for the first time, I've been actually considering meds. I haven't been exercising (no time, weather, and ankle fracture) and I think that really brought me down and I have to get back up again.
Hi pax! (I used to post under the name julie). I caught up a bit with you and i do remember some of your situation. Especially concerning the dog. Not fair at all. I'm sorry.
I relate to your struggles with lawyer paperwork and the feeling of ptsd. Even though it's been so long and even though affairs were not thrown in our faces. There is something really off putting.
ITs like we don't have an affirmative "they are wrong". But we know something is off and it is mind fu...ing. My ex comes across like cooperative, good old american boy now. I come across as scatter brained...difficulty getting attorney stuff done and probably angry ex wife.
I read up on covert narcissism, and different types of abuse (never wanted to use that word) to get a better grasp on the relationship and way that he left. It's hard to understand the callousness. I wasn't just a girlfriend you break up with cause we weren't right for each other. I was with my ex for 15 years and the mother of his child and we had a commitment.
I wish I just had a real explanation on how a person leaves the way he did, instead of a "your better off without him"
