Been following along with your sitch since you joined last year. The demeanor of our stbx's were similar at the time (around bd) and like you, I couldn't find clear cut evidence of ow..... Just straight up running and desire to have fun. I don't have much to add, except for the fact that I know exactly how you feel. Some days I do well, and then I'm shocked with the trauma that I still feel after 1.5 years of separation. My d wil be final this year too....gosh there is so much recovery and healing that still needs to be done and yet stbx's skip along seeming in complete acceptance of their decision. No turning back! It boggles the mind sometimes.
Good luck... I hope you start to feel better soon.
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
