Lost, I'm gonna call you lost cause that is how I know you, I feel your pain brother, in fact I had to stop reading because I own that hurt that you describe... But I'm learning to set it aside, to move past it. You and I are not the same person, if I had confronted my WW at the OM's house, I would be in jail right now, but that isn't important, what's important is that you see it's a feeble attempt at showing your just... Just recognize that your M is over, the only way to save your M is to move past it. It's hard to explain that, sooooo many people say how can I save my M if I end it, and the best response I have is that your M is already over, but the only chance to start a new R is to end the current one.
Me personally, there is nothing that would cause me to start a new R with my ex. That doesn't stop me from missing my M, or at least what I thought my M was, but in no way am I interested in entering a new R with my ex, my eyes have been opened to what I want in life, to what I want in a M and I am no longer willing to settle.
In my time on this board, approximately 7 months, I've seen a few WW come on and recognize what they'd done, and willing to do anything to save their M.. I've noticed one common theme in their stories, their H ended the R as soon as they found out. I believe that would have changed my sitch, had I been willing or able to move on as soon as I found out; I'm there now, but it's too late for me, there has been to much disrespect from her for me to accept her back, but I believe if I had laid down the law immediately, things may have been different.
Right now you need to forget about your WW, you need to stop spying and move forward, you are only eating yourself up trying.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
