Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 8

[PsySara]

Journaling....
I had some severe dips today, I went to work, did well and then by 1 pm was kind of sinking. I went home for a rest and was in bed when WH came to me and asked me to watch the baby while he went out for food. I told him I was unwell and had a doc appointment at 3. (cardiology) He asked if it was about my colposcopy results, I told him I had the LEEP last week and needed follow up in 6 months to check for any more cancer. He mumbled sorry and left to get food.

I went to my cardiology appointment and the doc is ordering some tests and feels ablation may need to be done. By the time I drove home I was feeling in better spirits and even had some casual convos with WH. I even volunteered my cardio information which appeared to engage him in conversation. I am making some very BASIC goals for myself:

1: have some minimal conversations with WH where I am calm and happy (already accomplished this today)
2:Keep reaching out to my friends/family who are my cheerleaders
3: Keep my gym and salat routines