You asked what I respect in a man after I admitted I have none for myt husband: strength, honor, and integrity (specifically boundaries).
I've been reading a lot of inner peace material and several assert the concept of letting the pain be. Feel the pain, let it go through you, then grow and emerge from it. Don't fight it. Feel it, let it run its course. I knowse that may not sound comforting right now, especially with your time clock running out. But it's a way to let go and I've found it helpful. Otherwise, I'm afraid I would destroy my physical health with the worry. You'll prevail once you let go. At least that's what I'm thinking for myself.
