Actually, Gordie ...

It's probably true that there is no path to R through in-house-S ...

But in my case I believe there is no path to R, period.

I just have trouble accepting it.

But I'm getting there.

Me: 50, MLC/WW 45
Young kids
Nov 2015: BD1
Apr 2016: BD2
Jan 2017: W filed
Feb 2017: D final