I fully related with the negativity. I have read several articles indicating that it takes 21 days to change an habit! For the last 5 days I have been saying kind things to me and reading a lot of positive posts. It takes times and energy to change your mindset but believe me it is working. My view on life has changed and I can clearly see that I was very negative and that must have been really hard for H to come back to a house with so much negativity.
I started to say two positive sentences to start with then just added two more today.
1) I deserve to be loved by someone. 2) I deserve to be happy. 3) I love you. This one is really hard for me to believe but I'm prepared to stick with it. And the last one which I find really hard: I forgive myself for falling in love with H when I ignored the big red signals.
What I'm trying to say is choose two positives things and repeat them several times everyday until it sinks in and you believe it.
You will get there Ju, and I'll be with you right by your side. We can do it together.
