Needing some Guidance

[KCRoo]

I am 33, she is 30. We have been together for 6 years, married 4.

I asked her what the deal was, what she gets from the other guy, and she said she thought she was happy with me, and is happy with me. She has told me that she loves me, and not the other guy, and she only wants to be with me. She also has said she knows I am too good to her. She said that the OM reminds her of a friend she use to have, who stopped talking to her when he got married. She also says that OM's dad died from cancer. Her father was diagnosed with prostate cancer about 5 years ago, and they gave him 4 years to live. So I know that is wearing on her, and I listen to her when she needs to talk about it. I was supportive about spending time with her dad, so she would not have any regrets.


The one complaint that she has made is that I don't like to go out all night and drink anymore, I guess you could say that I have grown up. I go out with her, or use to, but I don't like drinking all the time.

Additionally, over the last two years we have tried to have a child, and she has had two miscarriages. We have talked about the stress that is causing her, and stopped trying. Which happened after I discovered the EM, but I had been thinking about. I did confront her in one of our big fights, that she wanted to stop trying so she could go to the om without having to worry about being pregnant.

She has been affectionate to me, which I cant tell if she is just trying to string me along so I remain her safety net [in a fight I told her this too.]

I do really love her, and want to believe her, but at the same time I don't know.