WH sat down this afternoon and said he will be going to a lawyer and filing for divorce. He said he doesn't want to stay in a marriage where he argues everyday and is miserable. I validated and said he could do whatever he wants, I cannot stop him. WH then said he would probably need to live with me and the kids until the divorce was complete, I told him that was fine. I calmly went over some figures with regards to child support and then helped DD6 with her homework.

WH had gone back to his office and was playing video games. I told him I was going for a drive and then left for 2 hours.

I am in a bad way right now. I do not want a divorce but I am hitting a wall here. WH has turned into a monster and if he decides to drop the axe I will seek sole physical custody of the kids, I don't trust him to be consistent with them. Putting space between us simply escalated him to go for divorce. I even purchased an E-book by another author who also says he has the formula for saving marriages when they've been broken. Turns out he is just regurgitating DBing techniques. I really want to just curl up and disappear right now.


M 10yrs T 13yrs
BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW
BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off
Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce
April '17-Letting go
2018 D busted
DD8, DS6, DS3