Wow, okay, so actually on my way to your city to perform with a band for NYE. No I'm not driving and it's our second gig today so I'm texting this out in the back seat. Lol
I'm clearly no expert but have dated more than 2 woman, h@ll more than 50 I'm betting from 16 on so... Here goes. Take it for what it's worth
Red flags - red flags all over the place. First of all I would have suggested waiting a year. Many "experts" would agree. Then dude, it's a second date and you think she may be the one? Huh? How is that possible! Think about it.
Next I so often hear people say they will take things slow. But it's just talk as they speed ahead. Talk is easy - I always pay attention to actions and behavior.
Stop playing with your medications! You are not a doctor and self medicating is a hallmark of addiction. An SSRI, even with alcohol will not increase feelings. It does not work that way. If you think you need a dose adjust, talk with your doctor about that.
I'm less sure how to help you with what to do. You are just not in a place to be getting in a new R. If you were, you would not be in love and thinking she's the one after two dates. I just don't know what to suggest to slow things down other than setting and keeping boundaries for yourself. Perhaps no more than two dates a week? No sex for six months?
It's certainly possible she is the one. Anything is possible. But dude, what are the odds that the first person you date twice is really the one? Look at the rest of us on here. Is it possible you really got that lucky or more likely that it's everything else at play? I'm betting whomever your first infatuation was, you'd think she was the one. It just happens to be this woman. Something tells me you could gave picked a thousand "the ones" at this point in your journey.
I tend to think that there would be little risk if you really did take things slow but we both know that won't happen will it? I've seen this with others IRL. There are those who will latch on to the very first person, feeling they are the one. You admit you've done that all your life or twice in your life but you get the point. There is no way you are healed from your D yet, just no way. And that will color things big time, making it feel like you're feeling.
I hate to be the Donny downer here. And again take it for what it's worth. I have no crystal ball nor am I any expert. I just see the red flags and have seen this with others. They too felt the exact same way over and over again every year or two.
Finally, blond, blue eyes? H@ll send her my way - totally my type. Lol
Mix my comments up with all the others and do what you will with them. I honestly wish the best for you. I'm just afraid for you based on where you are at.
Okay, time to get the party started here in Madison.
