My wife and I been married for 9 years, I am a recovering alcoholic, we had a hard beginning because of it, I ended getting help for it, 4 years ago, we made it pass that, and I've been working hard on myself, but somehow we end up arguing and all the feelings she has keeps coming back, we went to counseling and we started working together, things were going good, not perfect but we were able to maintain stability, I made sure to ask randomly if our relationship is ok and if there is anything else we can work on, I'm always open for suggestions on trying to better myself, so far she's been ok with everything, she has said, recently I failed a drug test, I'm not making excuses I did something wrong it was a one time thing and it bit me in the end, now she says she lost trust, and that I lied about it, I did in the beginning, worried about the the outcome of it, but I did come clean half hr later, I didn't want to keep up with lies, now she wants a divorce, she won't talk unless she needs something, and she avoids me all day,,,,and tries very hard for me to leave the house, I don't know what to do can't get myself to leave my wife and kids, she's on medical restrictions, so I drive her to her appointments, my kids are scared, they don't want to go, what would be the best thing I can do,,,, PLEASE DOES SOMEONE HAVE ANY ADVICE, I've done everything I could ever do to help my wife and kids, I do understand what I've done, I don't have any excuses, I did something wrong, now what to do
