I think the time for me to take off my ring may be coming up fairly soon. There's a part of me that says the right time to take it off has already passed. But there's another part -- especially when I look at my kids -- that says it's not time yet.
I thought I was doing OK, then early this morning I had the most awful dream, one where my W was openly in a PA. The pain of that condense in my gut just below the sternum, opened a blackhole, and it woke me up and I could not go back to sleep.
This is all horrific and, today, I cannot imagine a way out.
ForGump - My old friend. I've not posted on your thread for a while. I've not known what to say.
I had to endure an in-house separation for about 3 months with my W openly flaunting her affair for a large part of it. I know the feeling you had well. Even though there is no obvious OM the daily pain of your W being around I am sure is difficult to cope with.
The only way "out" is forward. Not a helpful statement at all but you are a very thoughtful person so it will give you something to think about. The direction of "forward" isn't always obvious - it may well be a path that goes back through your own soul on a journey of rediscovery first. I don't know what happened in your situation a while ago that was a major shift for you - and you don't seem to want to talk about it so I won't pry. If you do though, you have good friends here who will listen.
Look after yourself, your children and your other priorities. You WILL get through this.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
