That's me in the spotlight

[Altair]

AP- because "I" spin so rapidly, my poles are flattened a bit. Figure that one out.
It is a good point about communication forms- and one I haven't resolved at all. Texts, which every one seems to do here with varying degrees of success, turned out to be a disaster. H would misinterpret, see spew and sarcasm where there was none, he also hated emails for some reason. My emails were apparently too long because of my attempts to make sure they were clear-- oh I stopped that at DB pretty much. So I am trying phone calls (well, maybe 6 total in the last seven months if that).
Maybe postal mail is the next shot.
And-perhaps- it doesn't make a difference.
He wants space so desperately that any contact has to be short and to the point. From now on I will revert back to short emails or texts though. (and of course there's the lack of replies, so that is changing my ways)

Trying to be more clear on the phone didn't help. I mean I knew this going in (and read about it here like 6000 times) that he's right where we were in May, with the May-me that he is super mad at for... hmm... causing his depression among many other horrible things I had done for the past five years. Yes, I think that was May.
I can understand lack of time in one place and not in another-- heck, the Altair that we see happened what, 16,000 years ago?

Vegas was fun, in an overstimulating way. Talked to lots of strangers at the tables, just was a basic stranger myself. Observed a LOT of couples holding hands of all ages shapes and sizes. Had a long conversation with a group about how terrified we were about Carrie Fisher's condition-- then, the next morning the tragic news.

So yeah-- new year's. No plans yet-- But I made it through the holidays in one piece so this is icing on the cake.