Altair - I thought I'd pop around with the nutmeg and chicken milk and see how you were doing.
I was reading "your" Wikipedia article just now - Altair rotates rapidly, with a velocity at the equator of approximately 286 km/s. This is a significant fraction of the star's estimated breakup speed of 400 km/s. Are you spinning my dear? I suspect so.
Thinking about your "fragile wall" got me thinking about something I wrote here many months ago. I used to joke about "little Timmy falling down the well" whenever I would go into a spiral. Those walls are important and keeping them intact is part of our healing and growth here.
I'm wondering if you changed your communication method you might get a better result with your H. Perhaps instead of calling with updates to your medical issues, writing an email would be better. You can think it through, compose it, perhaps get it proof-read here or elsewhere and then any responses your H makes he can put through the same rigour. What I "saw" in your last exchange was two people who are in very frightening and scary places reacting and feeding off of each other's reactions.
Just a thought.
Here's another big bear hug and I hope you have had a great time in Vegas. ((((Altair))))
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells