I feel like I can do anything, then I have those days that I feel like I am so nothing and that she is going to take it all from me and train our kids to do the same. Her family life was not very supportive and is very dysfunction now too. I was fortunate to have a great childhood and strong support from my family. I have read the divorce busting book several times. I can see her following the steps of regression line by line. It is text book actions and feelings and I feel so lost to know what her outcome is going to be and that I can do nothing to help her now. I feel all over the place and am seeking a start place to climb. It use to be to bring her away from the terrible influences and get her in an environment that she can recover. I did that but now she goes to those friends again and is pining for him again. She has filed for divorce and wants it over soon. But she wants to have all of the life she had, an opportunity for a new beginning ( I think with this OM) and me to just go away. I like my life other than what she is bringing to it. I dont want to leave it and would rather have her go find herself elsewhere. My support is here and the kids feel that she is gone to even though she sleeps here at night.
ME 47, WW 36 Kids B19, B17, G14, G12, B6 WWPA May 2014, EA revisited Oct 2016