Blu......I am on open book, but totally understand the need for anonymity.
I hope you are right when you say "you will find yourself again." Today has been a day of crazy emotions for me. Woke up with a headache (which I do often), started the morning off crying as I lay in bed thinking "is this really my life?" Ended up talking to one of my friends who asked if I could look after her 7 month old twin tomorrow, so that is something to look forward to. Then was looking through a drawer and found my wedding rings and started to cry again. Then ended the day having to take my dog to the vet only to find out he needs surgery
So I have gone from crying, to something to look forward to back to sadness. This has unfortunately has become the norm for me. I've been dealing with these crazy emotions for over a year and they definitely make me feel like crap.
I just wonder how much more of this can a person deal with. To say that we as the LBS have gotten the crap end of the deal is putting it mildly. I want to get to a point where I don't have anger towards my H when I think about what he has done. He has moved on with his life and it is like the last 11 years never happened. That is something I will NEVER understand.
