So, if telling him to stop and that he doesn't have the right to treat me that way doesn't work, what do you propose? Living elsewhere for a while? I do feel horribly about what I did and was desperate in the beginning just for him not to be done with me that I cowered to anything and everything. As time passes, its not that I don't feel bad for what I did, but now that I'm standing up for myself, he sees this as me not feeling guilty about what I did. He says that I'm not paying any consequences and I'm getting away scott-free...as if his words and actions aren't punishment enough. What is my "punishment" for this? I think in his mind, his words are the only punishment I'm getting, so its justified (to him.) IDK, obviously I've never been in this position before so I don't know what punishment fits the crime. I can say, living with the guilt of knowing what I did to him is hard, but to him that's not a consequence and I can't convince him that I feel that guilt. I stand up for myself...then I was "never truly sorry" and I'm acting as if it never happened. If I cower, then I lose my self-respect. Just so confused.
