You dont have to feel sorry for any emotions that you feel. You are entitled to your feelings. It will be quite humanely impossible not to feel what you're feeling unless you're some coldblooded creature.
Now what is that they say in merchant of venice? 'If you prick us, do we not bleed?' I knew my Shakespeare will come in useful one day but I always thought the dude could have written in less convoluted language.
This is your journey, SH. The only way out is through. Your journey will definitely look different from mine (but that's really because you won't take up poledancing and I don't have the guts to skydive) but we will arrive at where we are supposed to be, if we keep on keeping on.
Lots of love, dear friend.
You know where to put out the katniss/dory call if you need me.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.