A Father, that was called a Super Hero-Wolverine

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SH,
I was in a scramble trying to find your most recent posts yesterday (Christmas) and I failed to do so. Seriously, I looked, just didn't find it. You are not on a different leg of your journey than those you want to share with, you are on your own journey. Having been out of here for almost a month, I'm not familiar with what you reference above, but I know this...you fight hard my friend. And in part of that fight, you still look after others. Not all of those helped by the Wolverine agreed with his methods, but at the end of the day, they still got helped.

You had your kids on the eve and the day. I go my son at 10am on the day. The eve was my first one not with my "family" and while it was not without slight disappointment, it was truly fine, because I had me. I really mean that, I had me, and I was cool with that; happy in the fact that I am comfortable being alone and being with just me. That said, I would have loved to have had my son, but the time I did have with him, well we owned it.

My fear was: control, anger, and not knowing how to know what I want. My fear was my coping mechanisms for those things vacating. Fear is a general term my friend, and in this we should be specific. You are a comic nerd, so I'm safe with this quote... "If it bleeds we can kill it." Swartzeneggar in Predator. Point being, once identified how to remove it, you can make a strategy. What is the name of your fear?, because you are correct, we were meant to conquer or we were meant to cower - there are only two choices.

“If you loved someone, you loved him, and when you had nothing else to give, you still gave him love.” George Orwell, 1984. One of my favorite books. If you have read it, you might recall the lovers were tortured to the point by their worst fears where they turned each other in. Their fears were identified, and they were used against them Best as I can tell from my readings, you ain't turned in sht, bub. You are the real deal. [snikt!].

Laughing to myself as you laugh now, you knew what snikt! meant, freakin' nerd dude. Ha. Keep up your effort. I stand beside you.