MLC H at age 32, maybe single mum with a toddler S

[Maybe]

Hello other DBers, hope everyone is having a nice holiday regardless the ups and downs our (wannabe) WAS are throwing at us. Updates from me, my sister is visiting, so I managed to have a good time and keeping busy. She's leaving on NYE, but I want to focus on the positives even it will be just my son and I in the house.

H is not getting better. I throught he was, or I hope so. They don't call it roller coaster ride for nothing I guess. He seems to be laughing more with our son, but still angry, bitter, quick to start an argument. Threatening to take away the car, come in the house with his key and yell it's his house coz he's still paying. I know they are heat of the moment talk. But very disappointed at him to act like that right before Xmas lunch with family. My sister saw us for the first time after BD and said he just need more time to come around, and said he seemed to still care. I am happy to hear that but don't want to get my hopes up. But I do feel I can be happy without him now. Things will be harder, but me and my son will be fine.

I haven't seen son with H coz I never stay around anymore, but at Xmas lunch, son is very clingy to H, H enjoyed it and almost paraded about it, but for me, it's sad to see coz it says how much son misses his daddy. Even a 18 months old notice his absence. I again can't help but feel devastated for my son having to have two homes growing up. But we will stop here, nothing I can do...