M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3
Hey guys, thank you for checking in on me! I've been pretty busy once again with gal and work and being a mama. Not much changed from the weekend, not seen or heard from wh, my seething anger has calmed down a bit. Not sure if it's a phase, but I'm feeling a bit calmer in my head that this is a person I don't particularly want to be with, it's like he's hurt and insulted me beyond belief. I've since heard that his standards at work are slipping and he's performing poorly. This did hurt a little to hear, he's ever the professional and probably put work and being successful over our family. I do feel bad for him, but I also realise this isn't my fault, this was the life he chose, not me. It does appear he is just hitting self destruct.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
Not gloating but your h may need to hit rock bottom if he's ever going to wake up. If you're away from his path of destruction, he won't be able to drag you down nor blame you for it.
(((Cherry)))
Stay strong.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
Thanks grl. Despite everything, I don't wish bad things on him. But you're right, I can't be blamed (though he may well try), I'm not in the path, I don't see him, and I tried to save him the past couple years but I've been unable to, it is all on him.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
Merry Christmas to Cherry, one of the strongest women I've known. 2017 home-girl, gonna be our year.
"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies. BD: Feb '16 D: Mar '17 Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing. S6
Happy Christmas all, and thank you for the swing by. I've been pretty busy of late, I'm sure you all have been. I hope everyone has had as peaceful and loving day as they can at this time. I had a lovely time with family and S, as long as I have my children- I'll be happy I think. I've just enjoyed spending quality time with people who love and care for me. Seen wh a couple times in the last week, both quite different experiences. One where he seemed to follow me around my house, actually asked me about the pregnancy, and wanted to feel the baby kick. The other visit a couple days later where he didn't really speak much or look in my direction.
Still, I've kind of got a bit past this. I don't particularly know what the future holds. But I have lots of precious memories with my S, and I know he's happy as he has me and knows he can rely on me.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
