...I see now, like a blind man who has been given the gift of sight, that I was doing everything to try and please W, not myself. Doh!...
Well, this sounds like a good Xmas present to yourself Huddy! Sometimes we need these incidents to move us forwards. but the balancing act is go please yourself exactly as you describe above - and keep the door a touch ajar if you so choose.
I'm glad to hear you had a drink out with your friend and hope you can offer support to each other after a difficult year. 2017 is going to be better I'm sure
In the meantime, enjoy some R&R and look forward to some festive time with your kids a little later in the holidays.
Take care Huddy x
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus