So she stated yesterday that she has stopped talking to the OM but I don’t believe her at all (this would be the third time she has told me this). I am actually at the point of asking her to leave or locking her out of the house. The more I think of it the more I question as to why I would want someone in my life who doesn’t want to be here.
Yesterday she said stated she had ended it with the OM but also wanted a separation and my response was that’s fine. Plan right now is to rent a place and we will rotate 4 days in and out of the rental while the kids stay put in the house.
The longer this goes on the more I find I keep asking myself the question why- why am I here and why should I continue to stay. A part of me wants to lock her out today and be done with it (we have xmas dinner at our house and nobody knows what’s going on).
Not sure what my next steps will be but I have a hard time wanting to put any effort into this- I am however continuing to make myself better for me but I find this all is very draining.
