RBG80 -- just wanted to say hang in there, man. I've learned in my own sitch that this is anything but a straight-line journey we are on. You're going to move backward at times, and that's just the way grief/healing works. It's especially likely during the holidays. So don't beat on yourself or tell yourself you've suffered anything like a permanent or even meaningful setback. You're exactly where you are, which is the only place you can be. Happy holidays!
Me: 46 W: 44 Married: 17 Together 21 D13; S10 BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you) Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)