Yeah this time of year is tough ... I caught myself spinning a couple days ago. The financial issue to me is one of those things many do not talk about/address as most of us now are maintaining 2 separate house holds ... I once did a quick calculation of how much MLC has cost my family monetarily and it made me want to up-chuck. Emotionally ... its brutal. I consider myself pretty detached but the Holidays pull at those last little strings that are left .. the ones that seem impossible to snap after 25+ years. I thought about it the other day, how can one just throw all that away so easily then I am reminded of all I learned and I realize its the crisis they are in, those times were real and meant something .... just know that. I know its really tough this time of year. Like you I look towards God for an answer, and explanation ... I too have not received an answer but I have faith that when its all said and done I will realize why I had to go through all this, I know its His will and its for a specific reason. The scriptures that have been thrown my way the past week (more than one occasion) has been "Walk by faith, not by sight" .... He is working in ways we can not see nor understand .. continue your journey and allow Him to do His work.
