I've been doing a lot better till today. I found out she is in the process of filing. I don't know why but it hit me all over again. I've been really sad and I broke down for the first time in weeks.
I guess it shows how much I love her in the end
How did you find that out? Also, do you have your own lawyer now? I'm going to be honest and say that its probably going to get a bit worse before it gets better. Remember, one foot in front of the other. That's all you can do. Take care of yourself, first and foremost.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.