cheesyt 5 - now what?

[fightin]

I'm starting to believe the longer the time between us or space between us the less likely we are to get back together. Do I want to? I think so. I'm not 100% sure but I'd like to give us a shot. I guess I have been thinking a lot about that "path" lately. I don't see a path for us. I don't see myself as light house any longer because we do not speak.

I've been there, and depending on the day/moment I still do. I think it is hard to see working things out when our spouses don't even reach out.

I want her in or out of my life. I'm ready to carry on with my life. I want to move forward with or without her. I just wish she'd hurry up and serve me with D papers or come back and make it work. -this is the very impatient cheesyt speaking.

That's how I felt, in or out. I think that is fair to feel that way, cheesyt, so I don't know if that makes you impatient as much as you are just human. I think we all deserve enough respect for us to expect someone to either be in our lives or leave fully.

I guess I just don't know what direction to take regarding W, if anything at all. I've been doing the "do nothing" it's not getting me anywhere. Not that I did it for it to get me anywhere in particular, it's just the easiest and best option for my well-being right now.

Yes, take care of cheesyt first! You have to, but I know that the limbo has to stink. Thinking of you, I hope it keeps getting better for you, and I hope your W figures out for sure if she wants in or out.