W texted me last night, to remind me to pay my half of the cell bill. (mind you she'd used my cc to pay my half for the past 8 months) I did not reply. This morning she texted the same text. I don't have any login information (though it is my acct) so I just called.
I'm starting to believe the longer the time between us or space between us the less likely we are to get back together. Do I want to? I think so. I'm not 100% sure but I'd like to give us a shot. I guess I have been thinking a lot about that "path" lately. I don't see a path for us. I don't see myself as light house any longer because we do not speak.
I've recently acquired this attitude of "no you don't get a reply from me when you're with SOW" or something very similar. anger perhaps? that she's not reaching out to me or temp checking me? as with the cell phone bill. I don't see a need to reply.
I want her in or out of my life. I'm ready to carry on with my life. I want to move forward with or without her. I just wish she'd hurry up and serve me with D papers or come back and make it work. -this is the very impatient cheesyt speaking.
I guess I just don't know what direction to take regarding W, if anything at all. I've been doing the "do nothing" it's not getting me anywhere. Not that I did it for it to get me anywhere in particular, it's just the easiest and best option for my well-being right now.
-is there a magic road? i'd be interested in traveling it
