I just never wanted the divorce and me filing says to the world I'm ok with it. I know that's the wrong way to look at things and I'm struggling on what to do now.
I think you are right as in once filed I will feel a weight off my shoulders. I still don't want this but she isn't trying anything to save our marriage. I am the bread winner and make 4x her salary so I want to protect myself but our laws say everything is marital until divorce.
Crap, I hit submit too soon.
Honestly, I don't think there is a one of us on here that wanted to file. I certainly didn't. And even though I have no choice, I regret it. I guess I always will. And you are correct, in some ways - and certainly not immediately - you'll feel liberated. Try to think of it as a step to the new you and your new future...as much as that [censored].
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
