I just never wanted the divorce and me filing says to the world I'm ok with it. I know that's the wrong way to look at things and I'm struggling on what to do now.
I think you are right as in once filed I will feel a weight off my shoulders. I still don't want this but she isn't trying anything to save our marriage. I am the bread winner and make 4x her salary so I want to protect myself but our laws say everything is marital until divorce.
The part that makes me mad is I added her to my savings so she is now entitled to half. She didn't put in money into it and left after 4 months of being married so it bothers me that she thinks she should get half vs signing it back over.
I'm trying to keep calm. We haven't talked and I don't plan to right now.
