Well I don't know what today holds, but last night opened up a lot of hope. He actually sent me an email during the day about some stuff going on at work, which in and of itself is a breakthrough since he's been keeping me in the dark about a lot. Nothing much more til I got home that night. I went about my normal stuff, didn't try pushing or saying anything and he started a conversation. It was nothing about any of this, just stuff we have going on in an investment property, but it didnt stop there. He opened up to me about work and even when it got late and I said I should go to bed, he wanted me to stay up with him. I wanted to cry and jump up and down for joy, but I kept composed...until he walked out of the room haha. Another positive is that we had booked a trip with his brother for end of January. I figured at this point we, or at least I, wouldnt be going and that he'd already worked on transferring my ticket to someone else, but last night he asked what I'm going to tell them on vacation when I'm not drinking (since I've sworn it off...at least til I can handle myself and am in a good place.) So, he is still planning on me going. Just a really good night.
I know things might still rollercoaster, but that gave me hope. I have my counseling appointment tonight, so looking forward to seeing how that goes. I have to keep working on myself to keep this from happening again...and just to be a better, more grateful and appreciative wife.
