I love the post from klm. It makes sense. It is also about focus.You are overwhelmed by the craziness and poor behavior. That is understandable. But focusing on it helps neither your situation nor you.

Your H is reaching out to you also by letter and of course by texting. wink

I can't wait to hear what the best gift ever is!! But even if it isn't perfect have a nice reaction to: t or at least not negative. Maybe you will even like it.

I understand you craving some "off" time. So make it happen. Make some plans without H.

Best wishes

R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together