Had a lovely holiday at WDW. WH was happy and thankful and on the way home we started talking. I told him I am thinking of removing my hijab. Eventually the conversation spiraled into the affair and he again is back to telling me to file for divorce, that he is remorseless and I just need to realize it. He said he has no intention of doing the things I need to heal from his affair and he does not want me anymore.
And I think I am done folks. He even said I could have the kids and he would just...leave. I may take him up on that, he may be more of a toxic person in their lives than out of it. Basically he sacrificed their future and happiness when he stepped out of our marriage. He chose to follow his libido and base desires over turning toward our marriage and working on it. He again went into a rant about how I wasn't making him happy before the affair and that's why he found someone else.
I stopped even trying to argue. I told him that was fine, I could take care of the kids alone, I had already proven that to myself. I can give them the support, consistency and stability children need, he cannot. I can financially support them alone without it being tight. I told him he is welcome to walk away, I told him he was free to spend his money on bikes, cars, whatever. I told him he was not the man I thought he was and I needed to take care of myself and my children. When we got home I unpacked and then took the kids swimming. (I had promised my DD to swim today) When I got home WH was gone and I didn't even care. I fed and bathed the kids, laid their clothes out for school tomorrow and now I am taking a few minutes to relax. I will continue to take care of myself and move forward.
M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3
