where to begin or end? #2

[jade]

The reference about coffee. Once she left, i tried treating her more like a guest in my home so id have a pot of coffee on, and once a week make cinnamon rolls etc. And say thanks for coming to watch kids. At some point she stopped saying thank yous. And then to drive it home wouldnt eat the cinnarolls or drink any of the coffee. But would make comments "the kids enjoyed them" at me. So i felt she was spitefully denying herself that stuff.
Yes im still not fully detached. I was kinda hoping that if shes serious about the divorce papers she woulda followed through with her threat. Being in limbo stinks.
I describe my situation like being in an innertube in the middle of a lake, no clue which beach i will eventually drift on to.
As i DB, a question pops in my head, if i DB well theirs a good chance that i myself could become wayward! That doesnt feel right! Does that make sense?