That's me in the spotlight

[Altair]

Journaling.
I made it through the bridal gown fitting of friend. The sight of the dresses, the women trying them on, the flurries of photos and family oohin and ahing I was okay about. The fitter told my friend, "Congratulations!" and that is when I teared up and ran to the bathroom to recover. That word, unexpectedly, killed me.
Then we went out and let's just say people are starting to give me some nudges. My friend was like, this is insane, your H is acting insanely, don't wear your ring, as far as I am concerned you are single, stop wasting your life, etc.
I listen, I validate, inside my stomach churns because I'd be saying the same thing.
Another one today. More advice, you need to do an ultimatum, I want to help, we love you Altair you need to move on, this is crazy, he's treating you like crap, what about you, abandoning you is not okay!
Again, I listen, validate, thank them for caring (stomach still churning)

I told everyone, yeah, well, I won't do anything until next year at any rate. To be clear, I don't talk about H, they are merely concerned (not sick of me moping and complaining). So H is not poking head out but concerned friends are.