SRT I know what you mean --- that feeling of such intense sadness and pain and not wanting to be where you are at the moment, wanting to be able to somehow leapfrog over it into the next phase.

Sadly, the shortest way to get to the next phase is to power through this one, and trust that you will be ok.

You're not alone. {{{hugs}}}
xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver