very sad at the moment, sad at the way it is, at the lack of effort.

trying to block it all out and just keep moving forward, except the current ties feel like they are holding me back.

I want my new life, a new relationship etc etc. I know I am not ready yet but also believe one day it will just happen, not wanting to be burdened when that day comes.

M 10, T 18
M: 36, W: 35, D: 8, S: 6
EA: Oct 12
ILYBINILWY: Jan 15
BD: Aug 15
Separated: Sep 15
Miss you: Jun 16
Aug 16: Dating (!)
Oct 16: Selfishness returns...
currently: disgusted