Sounds like it was made for you! Have faith kiddo. I know letting go can be hard, especially when you pin all of your hopes and dreams on one person but they aren't the one. I believe he was there to let you know that you could feel all of those feelings again.
Now that you know that, just let it come to you. You keep trying so hard but you keep stubbing your toe. Have faith that he is out there but just doesn't know he is looking for you yet! (I tell myself that at least once a week).
You've got this!
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory