I understand just how you feel. I just wanted to make sure you weren't reacting to something that she said or did in the last few days.
When you file, please do not think that you can't return here to post. You will need our support during the process and we will be here to listen and offer advice along that path. We will support you in whatever you decide to do.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.