Many will tell you not to send it. But because you have had so little contact and she did "miss" the court appearance, it might be alright to send it. But, you need to shorten it, a lot. Read it back and delete the anything that is repetitive. Also, delete anything that makes you seem needy or weak. I know that you want to pour your heart out and say everything you can possibly think of, but you need to make it much shorter.
"Maybe you’ll allow me to prove to you my changes but I have resigned myself to believe you will not."
Do you see what is wrong with the quote above? Don't ask something and then answer it in the same sentence.
Be prepared for some major 2x4's coming your way by the vets here. Don't take them personally. Just know they are trying to help.
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