blueboy- My heart breaks for you. This is so unfair on you. To be honest, I don't know how you found the strength to continue on for so long. How have you found the strength so far? Is it because of your children?
She has no respect for you. Cheating on you with multiple partners, your marriage vows meant nothing to her. I'm sure there is a lot more that you don't know about either. Having lied to you so much, how can you trust that's she's being honest with you now? She's not even being honest about what happened in these affairs. How can you ever trust her again?
I think you are brave and have a good heart, but you deserve respect. At the very least, this is a total lack of respect for you, your children, and your marriage.
I really hope you can find some peace in your heart that will help you decide which direction to take. Life is too short and precious to waste it on people who hurt you. Focus on your happiness and the happiness of your children and perhaps you will find the courage to move forward, whichever step you decide to take.
