Sandi2, thank you so much for your honest input. I keep hearing I need to follow your story, so I'm trying to find it and glean from it.
The day after it happened and my husband gave me access to my phone (in front of him), I went and blocked him and any mutual friends (all gym friends) on text and social media. I have no intention of ever stepping foot in that gym again. This guy doesn't know my office phone number, although he knows what company I work for so I'm sure he could find it, but we really don't know that much about each other. I really have no desire to see or talk to this guy as I had no emotional investment in him. Again, we hadn't been talking for very long and I never pictured a relationship with him. It was all about the attention for me, even though I know that is just as bad.
As far as issues with our relationship, for the most part it really was amazing. We were partners in crime. Life literally has been just us and it takes effort on our part to get out and socialize with other people. Going through all of this, it really has made me realize how selfish I have been in our relationship. He gave and gave to me and I took so much of it for granted. There was one issue which I haven't really gotten into on here but plays an important part in this is our sex life. I've been hesitant to say anything because 1) I don't want to offer up any excuses for what I did and 2) that night that I got drunk, I told this guy through text about our issues. I think I mentioned it in my original post, but I think that is the part that is hurting him the most. He saw the texts and feels so betrayed and demeaned by me revealing something that never should have gone outside the walls of our home, especially since he has been working on it. That being said, I know that when I go to counseling, it is going to get brought up, but I can't do anything about it or use it as an excuse, so I don't feel there's even a point in me even going there.
