I filed - Anxious to get it over

[fightin]

So the X gave me a bunch of stuff yesterday when we met. I assumed it was a single bag and as I was waiting on the attorney to refund my card as they over charged me for my half I just popped the trunk and let her load it all. When I got home 2 hours later and popped the trunk to unload it was packed! I had told her repeatedly that if I had left anything that I haven't specifically asked her for then she can keep it, toss it, sell it, or give it away so I'm not sure why she felt so compelled to give me so much stuff.

I had also asked her to take it to SS's dad's house 2 weeks ago and she said she would, but never did. Maybe because it was so much stuff, maybe because she wanted to do it f2f, who knows. Some of the things she returned are mind boggling though. A magnifying glass that I don't even remember having, a thing for the kitchen sink to hold sponges that I had bought but it turned out to not work very well, and a t-shirt that was actually hers.

Not sure why I need a magnifying glass, but who knows, it could come in handy, but why give me the useless sponge holder? As for the shirt: We both had the exact same shirt and I had ordered them as she said she wanted one too, but when it arrived she didn't like the color so she never wore hers. She knows I have one just like it, why would I want her shirt too? (the shirt is about love). Oh and a tie that I had bought once before we got married, but we were thinking about doing a civil union ceremony but decided last minute we'd just wait and go somewhere to get married. (I ended up not wearing the tie) She kept all the other ties though, many of which I had bought.

She could have tossed most of the stuff without worrying if it was something I'd miss. Cups, a sifter, Tupperware, coffee filters (my coffee maker broke and I now have a french press, don't need filters). I can't mind read I know, but I can't help but think that not only did she no longer want these reminder of me around, but she wanted me to know that she didn't want them around and hence why she gave them to me rather than just tossing them out. Just to clarify too, this doesn't give me hope, I'm now beyond hope based on hints and mind games. If she were to make dramatic changes and say in no uncertain terms she still wanted a M with me, I'd consider it, but otherwise that door is closed. That said, it does make me curious as to what on earth is going on in that mind of hers.