Genuinely feel a sense of detachment now. I will always love my W and care for her, but the person she has been become now is not the woman I know.
I want to move forward with my life, concentrating on me and my S. I want to be happy and believe that I can be without the W. I'm beginning to see that I will be ok.
To all those who are at the beginning of the journey, you have my understanding and sincere sorrow - I know that you'll be going through hell and back and that these are some very dark times...
I wont go into too much detail, but would like to share that at one time I was thinking of suicide, I thought that my life was over and that I wasn't strong (or good) enough. Now I hope that non of you are this low, but if you are please know that things will get better, situations do improve and there is a life there for you. YOU DO MATTER! Drag yourself through each and every day, lean on people and get help from what ever source you need to.
I'm by no means through this situation, I have a very long journey still to travel, with many ups and downs, but I can now see that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
M - 36 / W - 32 S - 3 Together - 18 Yrs / Married - 10 Yrs Bomb Dropped - 4th Sept 2016 Moved out - 4th Sept 2016
