When he wakes up and does the necessary you can decide then how you feel.Right now that is academic as he is not there.It is normal you don't feel like you want him back. You have been through a lot. But the H that will want back in won't be the same boy that hides in the cubcave!! He will be different.You will too. So decide on that when you need to.
Are you squeezing any fun into your days into the buildup to Christmas?
Thanks for dropping by my thread.
Best wishes
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together