my suggestion is that you just put your marriage to the side for right now, as hard as that is. Rather than saying "slim chance of success" maybe just say, "i'm gonna put this in a box and store it here for safe keeping right now," and then try to focus on what would make you happy right now that doesn't include him. I know it's easy to say and very hard to do, but take baby steps. One thing a day that is just for you to make you happy. Could be making a cup of tea ... simple, gentle things that you can eventually build on.
Thank you bttrfly. What a beautiful way to put it. I like that that approach.
Have had a very emotional day with lots of triggers out holiday shopping. Feel like I have gone backwards the last 2 weeks with the anniversary, holidays, etc. Too upset to write much with any clarity. Need to think back and see what I was doing 6 weeks ago vs. now to help myself. I know I am smart, funny, loving, loyal person. But I feel so pathetic that I am still wallowing in this.
Tomorrow is another day. A chance to be stronger.
M:49 H:49 T:28 M:26 S24, D19, S15 BD/PA: June 2016 H living separately next to OW
