Great job by your daughter on first semester grades, and way to go to your son!!! Just a testament to what a great mom you are, Rose, as you laid the foundation for them to be successful! Much to be happy about there!
I hope you and your mom enjoyed your time together today and that you have a wonderful time next week with the kids.
I know how hard it is emotionally to step back. BD came two months before our 26 anniversary ... we'd been married almost 21, together almost 26. To say it's gut-wrenching is, I believe, a vast understatement. I felt like any contact was better than no contact, but then he'd leave and the price I paid for that brief foray was so very high.
I have an MLCer who alternately rages/spews, runs, and used to hug and kiss me and tell me he loves me until I told him to stop. Total mind f#c& ... I don't think it was intended as such, just how he honestly felt from moment to moment. Makes me glad to be me not him.
Rose, my suggestion is that you just put your marriage to the side for right now, as hard as that is. Rather than saying "slim chance of success" maybe just say, "i'm gonna put this in a box and store it here for safe keeping right now," and then try to focus on what would make you happy right now that doesn't include him. I know it's easy to say and very hard to do, but take baby steps. One thing a day that is just for you to make you happy. Could be making a cup of tea ... simple, gentle things that you can eventually build on.
xoxoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
