Thank you Esame,i really appreciate your comments.

I am not as together as i seem! I am not spinning or crippled by my situation but I have my struggles.I admit my W is better behaved than most mlcers so that helps too. Living as a couple with limited communication and no affection/attention from W is tough.

But I have what many lbs would love to have. I am grateful for that, but won't live forever like this. For now I have another family Christmas, which is priceless (even though will be tainted for me) . This is the third one since I decided to save my M.

I focus on other stuff as much as possible. That helps a lot.

Best wishes

R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together