Jujub, I hear and can see where you are coming from but I'm sure that during all the years you have spent with H, they weren't all that bad. It is hard to see the good things because we are so hurt. In time you will see it wasn't all that bad because if it was you would have left.
I know with Christmas upon us it is hard, although you are going to spend it with people you love. Unfortunately not everyone is as lucky as us.
